Inspiring story

for these couple of weeks, I've been thinking about my future rationally. How marriage would be my number ever on my list and things like that..
I was once have my faith and belief that I hold tight on to, but at points I lost it. Is it true that I have a rights to blame my environment for this, or I should straightly blame myself for this. My heart feels hollow and empty, sometimes I wonder "Does God hear my prayer and see me?" or "Are u there God?" because I don't feel like He warns me lately. I'm losing control.

Last night, I don't know how, I met my friend who already married last week. I do jealous, and what he shares and explains to me not only make me jealous but also realize something that I'm too scared to admit and tell myself. I have CHANGE.
I didn't see small things as a gift anymore, I have a formula to describe events and separate it into things that happen because of "how it's supposed to" and because of "MY works". while I know that the truth is those events in life are all "HIS WILL"

My friend's advice just hit me right on my face. I was once really strong, positive little girl that has fear of nothing because I have my belief, my faith, and my God. I saw things through "HIS WILL", my hands both have fingers that can be moved, my shadow that always follow me, my hair that grows longer every single day, and all the miracles he made around me. But, I don't know when, I stop see those things. I WAS INSPIRING.

I've been through a lot, I should have get a lot. not less.
Now, I'm a mess..I don't know where to fix first, but I know it starts with ME. :)

the Strawberries

Tadi malam aku dengan iseng ngepost thread di Plurk tentang 3 tipe cowo berdasarkan menu Strawberry.

1. Strawberry Goreng

2. Strawberry Double Cream

3. Strawberry Chocolate

Strawberry Goreng:

Terlihat ngga meyakinkan diluar, tekstur luar tepung yg digoreng jadi crispy2 gtu, tapi strawberrrynya sendiri lembut banget di dalem,cair malah. Dengan saus strawberry yang manis, strawberry goreng jadi pas, aneh, dan bikin penasaran. Ohya,makannya sendiri harus dikit2 dan pelan - pelan, hanya terasa nikmatnya klo masih panas2.. ibarat cowo,hmm mungkin serunya pas PDKT, dan tipe kayak gini biasanya males buat ditunggu lama2..

Strawberry Double Cream

Cream manis dan cheese cream yg menggoda banget bikin tampilan strawberry double cream menarik secara tuh menu warnanya merah-putih. Rasanya juga enak, asem asem tapi manis. creamnya lembuuuttt banget sedangkan strawberrynya tetep fresh (masih keras dan asem). Ibarat cowok, sikapnya maniiisss banget, tapi sifatnya berpendirian dan fresh (deskripsikan fresh mnurut kalian,bersemangat mungkin?) rada nyebelin karena sedikit terasa asam tapi bikin kita mau lagi makan tuh strawberry seperti cowo2 yg kadang bisa bikin jengkel tapi kita tetep aja di situ buat kejengkelan2 berikutnya.

Strawberry Chocolate

Nah yang terakhir ini emang classic. Menu yang udah lama dari jaman baheula. rasanya tetep enak. Sour-bitter-sweet. Sepanjang masa. dan entah mengapa aku selalu merasa strawberry chocolate itu seksi. Nyahahhaa..Sebenernya biasa aja sih.. si strawberry chocolate ini. Tampilannya emng g terlihat ‘fun’ seperti double cream, tapi lebih elegan dengan warna merah-cokelat tua. Rada ‘dingin’ sih tampilannya. Tapi sebenernya waktu dimakan terasa hangat karena cokelatnya lelehannya. hmmm….enaknya…ibarat cowo, tipe cowok ini tuh yang cool2 gtu,pasti disetiap jaman,tiap lingkungan, tiap sekolah pasti ada. Idola smua kaum hawa, seems unreachable, but once u reach ‘em maybe you both stuck forever..hahhaha..ohya, dan menu ini kayaknya g pernah membosankan..:)

Itulah teori - teori aku ttg cowok yg diibaratkan srtawberries. Mungkin harusnya ditambah Strawberry Fondue kali yah..:D

the Strawberries

Tadi malam aku dengan iseng ngepost thread di Plurk tentang 3 tipe cowo berdasarkan menu Strawberry.

1. Strawberry Goreng

2. Strawberry Double Cream

3. Strawberry Chocolate

Strawberry Goreng:

Terlihat ngga meyakinkan diluar, tekstur luar tepung yg digoreng jadi crispy2 gtu, tapi strawberrrynya sendiri lembut banget di dalem,cair malah. Dengan saus strawberry yang manis, strawberry goreng jadi pas, aneh, dan bikin penasaran. Ohya,makannya sendiri harus dikit2 dan pelan - pelan, hanya terasa nikmatnya klo masih panas2.. ibarat cowo,hmm mungkin serunya pas PDKT, dan tipe kayak gini biasanya males buat ditunggu lama2..

Strawberry Double Cream

Cream manis dan cheese cream yg menggoda banget bikin tampilan strawberry double cream menarik secara tuh menu warnanya merah-putih. Rasanya juga enak, asem asem tapi manis. creamnya lembuuuttt banget sedangkan strawberrynya tetep fresh (masih keras dan asem). Ibarat cowok, sikapnya maniiisss banget, tapi sifatnya berpendirian dan fresh (deskripsikan fresh mnurut kalian,bersemangat mungkin?) rada nyebelin karena sedikit terasa asam tapi bikin kita mau lagi makan tuh strawberry seperti cowo2 yg kadang bisa bikin jengkel tapi kita tetep aja di situ buat kejengkelan2 berikutnya.

Strawberry Chocolate

Nah yang terakhir ini emang classic. Menu yang udah lama dari jaman baheula. rasanya tetep enak. Sour-bitter-sweet. Sepanjang masa. dan entah mengapa aku selalu merasa strawberry chocolate itu seksi. Nyahahhaa..Sebenernya biasa aja sih.. si strawberry chocolate ini. Tampilannya emng g terlihat ‘fun’ seperti double cream, tapi lebih elegan dengan warna merah-cokelat tua. Rada ‘dingin’ sih tampilannya. Tapi sebenernya waktu dimakan terasa hangat karena cokelatnya lelehannya. hmmm….enaknya…ibarat cowo, tipe cowok ini tuh yang cool2 gtu,pasti disetiap jaman,tiap lingkungan, tiap sekolah pasti ada. Idola smua kaum hawa, seems unreachable, but once u reach ‘em maybe you both stuck forever..hahhaha

Itulah teori - teori aku ttg cowok yg diibaratkan srtawberries. Mungkin harusnya ditambah Strawberry Fondue kali yah..:D

I won't feel the guilt

I know that in life we always choose our way. And sometimes, our decision have the impact to others, so do their decision impact us. But, we never realize that most of the times it's all because of our own hand.

No matter what path we take, they will stick with path they took.
so, no matter wat we do, they will stay the same, unless they change their path by their own will :)

For you guys out there, stop feel the guilt of what u do, it's ur life, your options, your decisions. And stop blaming other of what happen to you. What u get is wat u work for, wat u have is wat u belong to.

Loving you.

It's easy coz you're beautiful.

I do my best

Mungkin bener kata org. Selalu ada yang datang dan selalu ada yg pergi... but i always believe some of those things stay,here, in our heart. Kadang gw menemukan sebuah masalah yg g berujung dan g berpangkal. Kadang gw menemukan fakta bahwa kata2 ga cukup buat nunjukin apa yg kita rasakan. Bahkan, kadang2 lebih baik lo diam, and some words better left unsaid.

I have a friend, he is one of my closest friends. I just lost him, I'm being hurt and because of that I hurt him. Do I regret? nope, I told him that I'm hurt, and I don't regret it. But I'm sorry for that. Do I feel the lost? yes, indeed I am.

I never be ashamed of having him as my friend. Though sometimes we have a fight and he's kinda annoying some moments, but it's him, my friend, who cares about me. i never blame his feelings towards me. I even feel the guilt when i cannot do the same. And after two years, I decide to pray and ask God's opinion about all of the guys 'around' me. I mean 'ALL', like 5 to 6 guys. so if which ever is meant to be with me He will lead the way, and if not they could stay away in a good condition.
I don't really understand how it works, until the next day...

The first guy I pray for was goin out with his ex. okay, one down.

Then at night, Via *my highschool BFF* saying about my friend's blog (the one that just hate me like hell now)
Then I open it, and look what I found??he made the mistake that I did last time we hav this huge fight. He wrote on his blog, about me that includes my mother's quote *which it's not hers. since she never said that* I am so MAD. so UPSET. I try to talk to him, I decide to stop hurting him and hurting my self *by his misread,and my misread, and knowing that being friend is not the solution. I knew it before my mind did.

But here's the twist: it turns out he hates me and feels disappointed. Question mark for me,but it's his rights. Anyway,I was so fade up and i don't really care till today I heard this 'nasehat' which says :"kerukunan adalah salah satu kunci ke surga"
hmm,sounds make sense to me. And I text him, i say I'm sorry and pray him to be blessed.

Before this, i thought hate is the ugliest feeling that Allah has ever create.But, now, I don't think it is.. We could hate bad things, all of the things that Allah hates. Then, I realize, I do what is right..swallow my pride,I'm saying sorry with all of my heart if i hurt him. it's not make my disappointment lessen, but I try to be 'ikhlas' though, and I did. Then, I figure out that if his hate towards me bring us to 'kerukunan' why not? instead of staying friend but screw it again and again.

gw ngobrol sama dika,
bimbi: dik kenapa sih temenan aja g bisa? malah salah paham terus..
dika: beda bim klo pake perasaan..
bimbi: emng g bisa jadi temen yg baik aja ya?
dika: susah bim, pasti maunya lebih..kalau ngga ya ujung2nya cuma bisa ngejauh..

GOT IT. kalau dengan bgitu jadi lbh baik, ya sudah..mngkn itu jawaban dr yg Allah setelah istiqoroh, walaupun g enk,tp ini udh qodarnya Allah.. ya toh?? Mngkn emang jalannya bgini..hoho..

Terlepas dari apapun, Allah itu emng udah yg paling puuooll! Smoga smua diberi kemudahan..aminaminamin..

try to put my feet back on the ground..

i really don't know what is going on with me. It's been weeks I feel so 'empty'.
dulu gw sangat merasa beragama.. belakangan ini gw ngerasa jauuuuhhh banget sama Allah. Padahal ini Ramadhan lho.. (thinking)

dengan segala cita2 gw, dengan segala kuliah gw, bahkan semua barang belanjaan gw, gw masih merasa 'kosong'. Gw seneng pny teman2 yg ngerti gw dan bisa berbagi sama gw. But lately, I realize that ada satu hal yg bahkan g bisa gw bagi sama sahabat gw sndiri. Indahnya iman, indahnya agama Allah. Indahnya Islam.

Bisa sih, tapi gak se-bisa itu... Tapi mngkn g ada temen gw yg gw doain banget (sampe nangis2) kecuali dia. Meeennn, after all gw kenal dia, gw percaya Allah ngirim dya buat jagain gw selama di Bandung. Dia melakukan tgsnya dgn baik, dan dia ngajarin gw banyak hal.. gw doa supaya dia diberikan yang terbaik.. Dan gw gak rela kalo org2 yg gw sayang gak diberikan perlindungan-Nya.

hmm, gw sendiri juga butuh pencerahan. BANGET! I feel so alone here.. sangat butuh nasehat yg memotivasi.. bzz...

My Wedding Plan = Freak Out Dad

Okay, a couple days ago I wrote this NOTE about the wedding plan, most of my answers there are hyperbolic silly answers, one of the question asking about when will I get married, and I said "next year,haha.." and I answer all of the questions there, then I tagged some of my friends *not all.

So, I dunno how, but my father have a very close friend, and his friend is sort of reading this note and he called my dad..asking bout my wedding NEXT YEAR! yeah..rite..thank you for confirming Sir..

and this early morning *on my way to the exchange students place to pick them up* my dad called. As usual, he's telling me about this meditation method *which I practice myself everyday* and asking about my activities for today. But then my dad told me that his friend checked out my notes on FB and he asked "are you gonna get married next year? do u wanna get married next year?" he (try to)sounds calm, *but I know he's in a big shock and curious and panic in the same time* it's funny I have to say..hahahahahahaha

then I answered him carelessly, like "dad, it's just a silly notes, da?"

thank Allah he didn't get stroke or heart attack. I'm sorry by the way for the shocking news dad, your daughter could be too impulsive and ridiculous.


P.S: on my notes I wrote "I'm holding centong right now" the 'centong' mean big spoon for taking soup to your bowl. *see?it's a hyperbolic answer*

wish to have three wedding parties anyway.lol.
-bims

My new room

hello all, i just wanna tell ya all that I just check out my new room, and when i turn my back on the door I read some rules on it written by the owner of course. *I should have a picture of it to show u guys..

There's nothing wrong with that, but something bother me about the hot water usage schedule. Uniquely, my new kosan *you can call it like apartment, or well actually it's just a room, so in Bandung you can rent a room in a house, like boarding house,somethin like that* it is quite expensive, if u classify kosan into 3 classes(low, middle, high) then,my kosan in second class (middle). It cost IDR 1,250 million, but because I've been rent the room (since the old building,my new room is in the new building..it's renovated) for the past two years, so I got discount (IDR 1,100 mill)the laundry is excluded.

The facilities are the Internet connection,they say it's full furnished but I prefer use my old stuffs, TV cable, private toilet, and the hot water or may be scheduled usage of hot water I must say.

So, since I just check it out (in the middle of this holiday), I find out that the hot water usage is limited. It was SHOCKING, since my friend rent a room for IDR 1,1mill and he got the hot water WITHOUT ANY CONDITION, well unless it broke I think.

hmm, there I were, stood in front of my new room and curse at the rules written. AGH! I think the owner is desperately stingy. And I must say that she's kinda cocky. Because if my mom complaining,then she will just like "ok,you can move out and take another house. Don't take my house then"
What kind of SERVICE is that. No, offense ma'am, I take it easy.

Dear Allah, please make me to be a better person instead of keep complaining. I have paid, I will stay for another year here, I'll take it no big deal. I'm so grateful to be able to stay,because they got mosque right across the house, so I can ngaji easily..:)

I'm sorry that you have to read all of my complaints.whatever.

Btw, today I will assist my exchange class mate, they're Dutch and I'm about to take them to our campus (their new campus) and help them to buy their stuffs in some stores..yeah, it's gonna be so much FUN. Oh, and those are four of them, but one will go to UGM next week. The other will take class in SBM ITB this semester and they are Casper Johannes Heijmen, Danka Oosterhof,and Maya Hendriksen. Welcome to INDONESIA ma maann!

CIAO!hav a nice weekend
wish the water usage was unscheduled..ammeenn
:)

Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato Style

After weeks I have this MJ-syndrome which makes me buy-and-find-anything-about-MJ, it turns out that the syndrome finally gone. Not that GONE actually, but at least now I can talk other thing than Michael.

I found my holiday isn't that boring actually, I watch Twilight (*sooo yesterday, I know) and I read the books (Eclipse on progress). And now, I really love to search any kind of story which related to Twilight's casts (freak). Whatever.

I really like Taylor Lautner as Jacob Black, from three main character (according to me actually) between Bella, Edward, and Jake, I think Taylor is ssooo Jake. So, I start to find something on web, and find out that he(might) dating Selena Gomez, one of the cutest girl alive (again, according to me :p). Check out these pictures..what a sweet moments to share with.

*The same bag, out with the same guy :)

I rarely watch Disney actually,but I watch her movie (for my empty holiday) the Princess Protection Program.

Princess Protection Program

She play the role as Carter *I forget her last name there* and she plays with Demi Lovato. and I really love both. These two girl are BFF, Sel also has other BFF, Taylor Swift. We'll talk about her later I guess..

Honestly, on that movie, I like Demi more than Sel. But for real (when I search both of them in People) I love Sel futrher, since she's really stylist and always wear the right stuffs. While Demi, hmmm, what more I can say, you're all can check it out..

Sel's pics

Red Carpet Style




















Off The Carpet

nice shoes

classy-chic-casual

Demi's Pics















Whuzz Up With the Make Up??









Look Alike





So, which one do you like better? Sel or Demi? who ever your pick, I bet they're gonna be great actress one day.. :)

wish I was there..:P

best items found

yesterday I went out with my BFF, Andika Wiradiputra, to Pondok Indah Mall 2. We watched UP with my high-school-pals. Then, the shopping window start from meToo PIM 1. I found this cute heels (or wedges?). It was really fit on me, the price also make sense..*make sense doesn't mean fit on,lol






then, we go back to PIM 2 and dying to see (X)SML stuff on the third floor there, which we have to pass ZARA. well, there we were, can't get pass it without stop by first. It won't hurt you by the way (at least that's my thought before we find the finest stuffs there). I was hunting for girl's stuffs and he was searching for something nice around the man section. I show him some shoes I admire and then I found a Michael Jackson's kind of jacket. With the buttons, velvet accent, and of coure details (agh! I love details). Dika tried it on, and it was really, really, fit on him..









If I were a boy, I'll buy that jacket. DAMN! that jacket is the exact jacket that I wanna have. Oh, really forgot to mention that now I'm a big fan of MJ since his memorial service ceremony, *shoooott!
well, by the way, the price is choking my throat when I read the tag, it's IDR 1.500.000.. but though I think it's even. Since you will never find it anywhere else and you can't copy it with all the details and cutting. Really breaks my heart when we have to hang it back on its place..:(

Okay, now we're back to female section,I grab three pantses I found there. Two of them are denim with undescribable cutting, and the last one is the coolest one (yet freak if I might admit). the last pants' material is the same material with MJ's jacket which he usually wears on his Billly Jean performance. the bling2 one..
When I tried it on,it was fit on my legs and it looks like black leather pants tight up. Really great cutting if I were Kate Moss or Taylor Momsen. the price is around IDR 300.000. But ya right, where in the world on this country am I gonna wear it? I believe I can't where it anywhere unless I live in Calif of NYC, that would lead to different story..haha







That's all I've got from Tuesday-stuffs-hunting with my BFF..

Wish I have it all :)

FINAL SCORE IS OUT

yaya..temen2 gw smuanya juga udah ngeliat nilai akhir semester dan SBM menjadi neraka dunia..bginilah percakapan gw kluar kawasan ITB dengan lunglai kemarin sore:


bimbi: Agh! nilai gw jeleg nyeet! ge ga akan belajar2 lagi!
dika: jangan gtulah, harusnya tambah semangat
temen dika: tenang bim, shit happens in life
bimbi: YEAH! and SHIT happens a little more often in MY LIFE!

bginilah..kadang naik kadang turun, kadang menyedihkan... :(
but though, no other shit smells even worse than this one in my SBM life..

Cain and Abel korean drama

Last week I spent my time watching DVDs at home. After searching so many korean dramas to watch, I finally watch Cain and Abel starring So Ji-sub, Shin Hyeon-joon, Chae Jeong-an, and Han Ji-min. So Ji-sub was taking the role in korean drama 'I'm sorry, I love you'.

This story Based on the biblical story of Adam and Eve’s first two sons, Cain and Abel is about Cain’s jealousy towards his brother Abel. Lee Cho In (So Ji-sub) is a very gifted doctor who has everything that he wants whereas his older brother, Seon Woo(SHin Hyeon-joon), is jealous of all the attention that Cho In receives. Seon Woo blames his brother for taking everything good in his life away from him. Seon Woo blames Cho In for getting their father’s love, getting more recognition as a doctor, and for stealing the woman he loves.





Overall I think this drama is amusing and cool. With all the story line, setting, the strong characteristic of each character, and great act of all stars involeved. I think the conspiracy story line really interesting and keep me watching this series. What I like from korean drama is they always show the both sides of each character, thus we can really feel the flow and the character not to naif.




In my own opinion, So Ji-sub is a great actor. He played his role very well and we can feel his character emotion after all he has been through in this movie. And I admit that now I'm one of his fans :D. So, I'm gonna add some of his pics here..hahahha